NEND - No expectations, no disappointments.

No expectations, no disappointments.

I met a friend in the evening to get some stuff from her. We talked for a bit before she let out a,"You didnt tell me about your op, but some of your friends knew! Do you even treat me as your friend?!" I paused for a while. Recalling some issues she had with her partner, I calmly told her,"I think you expect too much sometimes, from your friends, even from your partner. And if they don't live up to your expectations as how they should behave, you will begin to question their actions and be disappointed. Don't you think you'll be happier if you didn't expect so much?" And then we completely avoided the topic altogether. Having known her for almost 2 years now, I deduce that she's the type of person who will give her all in a friendship and a relationship and she expects the same from the other party. A naive, wide-eyed princess who I truly appreciate as a friend. The first friend, I have made since starting my job.

I am rather particularly private even though I might seem to have a pretty exuberant personality at times. I get extremely uncomfortable when people, especially strangers whom I have met for a few hours start probing about my personal life. Making conversation is not an excuse. There are a trillion and one things to talk about.

Therefore, starting this blog has been and is a GIANT step for me but I don't count on myself to release everything. I live life with many mantras, one of which,"No expectations, no disappointments." This, which I have learnt in the critical years of my adolescence where I can get quite disturbed when my friends do not behave in a way I expect them to. One day, it just hit me. I have no right to expect them to behave how I think they should, we are all individuals. Hang on, I DO have a right to expect and they do have a right NOT to conform as well. I respect their decision makings and require no need for explanation. You do not have to explain to anybody, because people who like you, do not need it and people who do not like you, would not belive you anyway. The only time when I want to listen to an explanation is when I am in the mood for stories. My mood comes in very regular intervals.

Who doesn't like a bit of gossip. Come on.

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Looking forward to having a break in September when I have 2 weeks of leave, Holiday Leave! Going off to England to see my precious god daughter. Charming, a darling, really. I saw her last year when all she could say was,"No way!" I spoke to my cousin a few days ago and heard from her that kiddo here has started asking her mummy repeatedly if she knows when I am dropping by for a visit and what I am currently doing. Usually leaves my cousin stunned with a "How the f*** would I know what he's doing now?" kind of look. Can't wait to see you too babe.

IHALBFW - I'm having a long break from work.

I'm having a long break from work.

Sounds ideal but understanding my present situation, NOT so ideal. I am on Medical Leave till the 1st of August from the 7th of July, which makes it almost a month! Cut the story short, went for operation, therefore Hospitalization Leave.

However, this break came at a good time too. Of finding several things to occupy my mind, I decided to start a blog today, after much protests from myself when my friends initially urged me to start one. I finished several books in the past 2 weeks, including one which I am re-reading now, having finished it 2 days ago, The Sharper Your Knife, The Less You Cry by Kathleen Flinn. The book is about her finally realising her dream to attend the world renowned culinary school, Le Cordon Bleu in Paris. (I did not make it to the top of the Tower, it was WAYYYY too cold, just took some quick shots)

http://www.kathleenflinn.com/

http://www.cordonbleu.edu/

This book was on loan to me by my dear cousin and these are her shoes of the moment, Varina, by Salvatore Ferragamo. Well, she owns one pair, this picture was just sent to her for her to decide on colour. Anyway, let's not digress.

I thank her for doing so (loaning me the book, not buying the shoes). It not only relieved me of boredom but also revived my passion for cooking and churning out baked goods (my virgin experience). I love working in the kitchen, with no help from my mum (not that I would ask for any). We have contrasting methods and we (more so I) usually end up snapping at one another (more so me snap her than her snap me. Try saying that 10 times faster, 10 times. It's fun to do).

With this relighted flame, I realised that there's only one answer, no doubt about it, to save and work towards a culinary school. Ever since I completed my Diploma in Hospitality Management with Temasek Polytechnic, I knew that cooking will definitely be on top of my list. Right now, I am still enjoying my job tremendously, though not in the kitchen. I will have enough fun, I will save enough money, I will go to a culinary school.

I quote, "Pastry is like people. Some dough needs a lot of kneading, some requires much less. Some dough is satisfied to rise just a little, while other dough needs to double in size. All dough needs warmth to rise." Unquote. Taken from The Sharper Your Knife, The Less You Cry - Memoirs of a Quiche.

With this, ends today's entry.